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Hello, Reality.

Hello and welcome to reality. Here the grass is greener if you water it, the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow is empty, and breaking a leg actually isn't a sign of good luck. Today I reflected on the person I was two years ago. It's amazing to me the people I hadn't met two years ago. Two years ago I never would have imagined falling in love with the people I did, getting broken by those who broke me, working in the places I have worked, and rebuilding myself after all the storms were over. Even though these past two years has NOT been the easiest, I am beyond grateful for the lessons I have learned. I have grown up a tremendous amount lately. I have started working, I have been fully working on my degree, and I am growing spiritually in my relationship with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I could go on and on for days about the differences between that girl I used to be, and the woman I am today. The main reason I blog is for my future children. I want them to know that at some point I was kind of like them. I struggled, I cried, I lost, I battled, and I am still breathing. Life is difficult and we are all going to face some sort of sadness or disappointment every single day. The only way to survive is to have faith and to just breathe. Be brave in those moments of weakness and always remember that life begins at the end of your comfort zone.

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