Skip to main content

Lead me, Guide me, Walk beside me.

Woke up. Got ready. Walked to class in the rain. Went to class. Watched people slide all around campus. Check email. Last class has been cancelled. Go home. Get text. Pinnacle Sales have been ceased immediately. Lost job. Cry. Call mom. Call cousin. Cry. Go to aunts. Find relief and comfort. Leave. Go to other aunts. Get comfort and dinner. Drive home. Cry while driving. Get home. Cry more. Call mom. Cry even more. Take shower. Cry while in the shower. Get dressed. Put on favorite pajamas. The ones with the turtles on them. Sit on the couch. Open laptop. Start this blog.

I woke up this morning and my life was perfect. I am attending BYU, I had a great job that I loved, and I had ice cream in the freezer, Really, what more could a girl want? Then the news came that Pinnacle Sales have been ceased and that I should not go into work until further notice. Basically, I have been laid off with no warning. The shock of all this was more than I could seem to handle. I cried in front of my roommate for the first time, and I called my cousin and went and hung out with her and my aunt and my other cousin for a while. Then I went to my other aunts for dinner. I have cried more today than I have in a long time. Life is so unexpected sometimes. Trials creep in just when you think you're finally in the clear. I am luckier than most. I have a decent amount of savings and parents who told me not to worry. Others aren't as lucky. The hardest part in all of this is not knowing what comes next. Where do I go from here? How will any other job compare to the one that I had and loved so much? Will I have to fill out a million job applications? I hate filling out job applications. The stress of the situation is awful. Thankfully, I've been here before. The same thing has happened to me before and something better came out of it. I keep reminding myself that Heavenly Father won't give me anything I can't handle. I am not alone in all of this. He knows my life, and he knows where I need to be. Although this is a bump in the road (more like a sink hole), I know that he is watching out for me. I am so grateful for the knowledge that I am a daughter of God. I am his child, and he loves me. He will lead me to where I need to go. When life is hard, and unexpected things happen, always remember, God's plan for your life far exceed the circumstances of the day.

Comments

  1. Shelby! I'm so sorry! My day has been horrible, too. Just know that Heavenly Father loves you, and so do I! You are amazing. You are so kind, smart, beautiful, and wonderful. I say we should have a bad-day movie night together soon. I'll make brownies. Things will get better :) Please let me know if I can help you with ANYTHING!

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

A Letter to Asher Rae.

Baby Asher, Your momma is currently in labor and in a few hours you'll make your grand debut into this world. From the moment I knew you were coming I was in shock and how much my heart could grow. I work with sweet children all day and I love them so much. The love I already have for you is so different. You'll be the first grandchild of my parents, and you'll be my first ever niece. You're coming into a world that is incredibly hard and difficult. With your amazing parents in your life you'll be taught how to be strong and to be valiant in all circumstances. Your dad, my brother, is an excellent human being. He is dedicated, he is a dreamer, he is a hard worker, and he will be the most amazing father. Your mom is so beautiful. She is loving, she is patient, and she loves your dad so much. Your grandma, my mom, is SO excited for you. She will love you and spoil you, but she will also help you when things get hard. Your Grandma Forsyth is a tough woman. The toughes...

COVID

The world of COVID-19 has been a world I never imagined possible. While this time has taken away so many things I am grateful for the things it has given me. I've found my new normal and for someone who loves structure that has been a huge relief. I don't feel the need to do as much. I don't feel as rushed. I dropped my ipad on the tile today and cracked the screen pretty badly and I didn't even cry. Things have become things and my trips to Target don't seem as crucial anymore. I've been sewing. I thank my grandmas and my aunts for their love of sewing that is now ingrained on my heart. I watch a lot of TV. I do a lot of cooking. Who knew?

Good Ole Sundays

So usually my Sundays consist of the same things: church, lunch, nap, dinner, and homework. Today was not the same, and it has made me crazy. So to start off my lovely Sunday, we only had church for a hour. Some of you may know why, but for others here is the explaination. While our beautiful building is being built, we go to church in 3 metal buildings. Only one of these has decent insulation. Since Florida has decided to become Antartica, it was quite cold, causing us to only have one hour of church and not three. Lunch was wonderful, and was quite normal considering the rest of my day. After lunch I walk back into the kitchen and find my mother humming a lady gaga song. I never understood her amazingness fully until today. So then comes naptime. Oh how I LOVE naptime on Sundays. So I go lay down and start watching tv, and I couldn't sleep. GREAT. Then finally after about 2 hours I fall asleep, and wake up ten minutes later. Just dandy. I was not a happy person to say the least. ...