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As a twenty-two year old I thought that there was an order my life would follow. It would go something like this:

Birth
School
More School
Higher School
University
Job
Marriage
Baby
More Babies
Get Old
Die

As an LDS woman being married and having babies is something I have always wanted. I figured marriage and babies would come easily for me. I moved to Utah, then I graduated college, then I got a great job, and now I'm just here. No marriage, no babies, just me. This is my life. Am I happy? I would say yes. Is it easy? I would say no. There is a certain level of humble one has to be in order to fully trust in God's plan for life. It requires constant prayer and fasting. It requires a faith stronger than I would have ever thought. Timing. Life is all about timing. Not my timing, but the Lord's timing for me. I am grateful for the power of prayer and the comfort it brings to my life. With daily communication with my Heavenly Father I am reassured that he knows best and that he always has my back, 100%. I am grateful for the stage of life I am in. I can go shopping and not feel guilty. I can go home at the end of the day and worry about myself. I am lucky. I am grateful. I am loved.

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  1. whitneyApril 15, 2016 at 10:42 PM

    Don't let Mormon culture make you feel like an old spinster...you are in your PRIME girl! And by no means even close to getting washed up and wrinkled into a single lady with lots of cats.

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